I have had a hunger for the truth even before I knew the religion my parents did not make sense. I use to watch Chinese movies without even knowing the language. I felt there was something there; as though somehow, they had the truth I was looking for. I would see them crossed legged, wishing someone could teach me their ways. Not knowing that one day “what is meditation” “what are spirit guides” and “how can I have a spiritual awakening”, would someday be answered.
Even before I knew anything about meditation I was looking for a way to find the wisdom meditation invoked. All I would see in movies were Buddhist practicing their meditations. It was almost like a fairytale or just something Buddhist did and no one else. I did not know what meditation was, let alone know how to do meditation.
Please keep in mind I was young and had no knowledge of culture and the different races in Asia. All I knew was that they sat cross-legged, without any concept of different types of meditation. I do remember that I was very intrigued by how peaceful Asians looked in their healing meditation practice. I think I consciously started to see the truth of their peace when I was seven or eight years of age. I would gather all I could from the culture, but the secret to inner peace and wisdom was not understood until I started meditating.
A was born into a Christian family that loved me very much. They tried their best and instilled all of the virtues they thought would allow me to have love, hope, and happiness. Although some of their knowledge was flawed, they tried the best that they could to teach me what they thought was best for me. As an adult, I can see the intent, but as a child, I did not understand why they did not see the conflict that was taught. Meditation unlocked the answers, I searched for over ten years, that was within me.
During my teen years, I knew intuitively that eating meat was not the right source of nourishment I needed in my body. As I began the practice of meditation, I noticed my meditations wouldn’t be as impactful as they were when I abstain from meat. At some point in my adult life, I started eating meat and could see the difference. Although it was my decision, it was a decision I made to be part of my then partners life.
Meditating was the true joy in my life. I traveled to distant places and experienced things that I still have not experienced in this world. I was truly connected to the universe. I remember at one point, in a state of consciousness, I traveled to what seemed to be outer space during a meditative state. Every chance I had, I would take the opportunity to meditate.
Most times, I kept a practice of meditating in the morning and before I went to bed. In times of comfort and in states where my vibration was low, I would try to meditate three or more times. My quest for the truth has been long. I am not saying that I have found the truth, but I have found bigger crumbs I can follow towards the truth of our divine power and love. It may take you a while or not; either way, do not accept that true power is reserved for only those special people.
Finding the truth is like bathing. You must do it every day and sometimes more than once a day. If you want to truly find the gift that is inside of you; the true superhuman power that was given to you at birth, you must be relentless in the pursuit of the truth, which is you.
Invest in yourself and take the time to love your heart. Below is a meditation you can use daily to open your heart and connect with your true divine self.
Heart Meditation